Apparently Gloria wanted to kill me. She tried to kill Carys, but the bullet just fell out of her head. Or so she tells me.

Carys is way pregnant now, and she keeps trying to off herself. Stupid bitch. I explained that she can't, but she's lost the plot. So I'm bringing her to the hospital. Ironic that she always called me insane and now we're switching places.

Not completely though, because I am not a bitch. I hope she's okay.

And I hope she gives the baby up for adoption because wow is she not mother material.

I went to see Bianca. She said that the demons hardly have any girls left now... I was thinking...could we use someone as bait? Someone supernatural who can hide their status? Didn't you once say that Aurelia did that? Spectre couldn't feel that she was an angel? And then maybe that person could get Kat out?

Griff, what the FUCK?! Carys?

Come on.

One of your friends has gone moral majority on you and the other's a Harry Potter girl.

Well, Carys. Maybe it's time for you to change too?

BOYS ARE STUPID EVERYTHING IS STUPID GODDAMN STUPID WORLD ARGH!

I'm home, despite everyone's insistence that I should stay away. I want to be with my family now. To help them heal too.

School is very strange. Being back amongst them when they haven't seen what I have. And they look at me and whisper. But I have Hope with me, always on my side. I think everything will be fine. I believe it can be.

Thank you to everyone who has been with me through all of this. I know what the truth is now. I just had to break to find it, and people had to help put me back together again.

A woman named Abigail is helping me to post this. Because Tamm and I made music outside and I don't need the walls to talk to me anymore. Abigail says I should talk to people that know me because they can remind me of how it was before I needed the walls and Tamm agrees and I trust them.

Can you remind me?

It's my date with Sergei tonight! I'm so excited! He won't tell me where he's taking me because it's all a big surprise, but I can't wait! Hope rang me to tell me he's been conspiring. Oh god, I have to choose something to wear!

Griff has a journal now! It's flawed_solace but he hasn't written anything yet. I made him make it when he got here last night. It's nice having him back around the house and it's nice to be home. I made sure my room was all fixed up and then I practised my cello for the first time in a while. It was really good.

And then Sergei called me!

I'm going back home, but only because Griff said he'd come stay with me. And I have Tasha's Dad on my mobile on speed dial and I'll ring if I need anything.

I just want to go home. I want a certain kind of normalcy. And Griff will always look out for me.

Thank you so much for helping me, Everyone.

This is all so fucked up.

Carys? Where are you? Where ever you are, don't go home.

My sister's at Griff's and she won't come home.

Sergei came over and we watched Amadeus and we had a really nice time! He told me about St. Petersburg and how he grew up which sounds horrible. I felt really bad for him but I'm glad he's here now and things are okay.

Then he kissed me goodbye on my cheek! It was sweet. He says he'd like to see me again. I liked that I didn't feel nervous around him.

Mum's coming home in about an hour. I had to clean the whole house again today because I cleaned it yesterday and then Carys and Rhys messed it up again. Jerks.

Mum's still gone! Hurray! And Sergei called me and he wants to come over and watch a movie! He's bringing over Amadeus! It's going to be fun.

Auditions and meeting tomorrow for the quartet! Tasha is coming over and it's going to be lots of fun! Rhys even promised to go out to a friend's house tomorrow afternoon!

Tonight's been great. Mum's gone and we ordered pizza and Rhys isn't even being a punkarse like he usually is! I feel good. It's nice to feel good for a change.

I went to Hope's yesterday and we had a very good time. I also met two boys. One was very nice and the other one was very cute! Their names were Dimitri and Sergei and I acted like a total freak in front of them. I hope they didn't notice. Anyway, Sergei said he'd take me to see the philharmonic! So I gave him my phone number. Dimitri didn't seem pleased, but he was nice and everything. And then Hope and I cut pictures out of magazines and made hilarious pictures. She put them on her wall. And then we had dinner with her mums, who are SO nice, by the way. I wish my mum was nice. I wish any of my relatives were nice. Well there's Griff. He's the only one and he's gone.

Hope, I want your family!

School was fun today. I really like meeting new people! And drama class is always interesting when a new dynamic is introduced into the group! It's fun to mix it up. Speaking of mixing it up, I might be forming a quartet with some of the people from school. I hope it works out, it'll be awesome it if does! I've been writing music for it and I'm very excited!

Not much else happening. Griff went back to Uni and I miss him, but I might go visit him sometime soon!

Breaks are lovely. Twin sisters are not. She won't leave me alone and she keeps saying she wants to get an online journal too so she can talk to people. Augh. She's driving Griff nuts as well so he's hiding in here and we're playing Monopoly. Or we were until he kicked my arse. He made me pay my rent in Easter Candy when I ran out of Monopoly money! How rude.

Stayed home from school today because I was feeling a bit ill. Stupid mother gave me a tongue lashing but Griff saves the day again and I spent the entire morning in bed reading Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.

If I freaked anyone out yesterday in drama, sorry. It's a thing.